I Waffle Between Two Kinds of Wonder--By: Kimberly Sabatini

This month on the blog we're talking about our first books and what we'd change about them as time has passed.

My answer is kind of a Mobius strip. 

I'd change so much and at the same time, nothing at all.

Let me try and explain...

Although I've yet to publish my next book, as I'm creating and writing new projects, I'm learning and growing. 

In my opinion--becoming a better writer. 

And I love every moment of engaging with my creative self. 

The process is a joy to me.

But publication is damn cool, too. 

And I plan to be back there when the time and the writing is right. 

Hence I write for myself and I write to share myself with others.

So, at the moment, the intersection of creating art for myself and chasing publication seems to be best represented by the book I already have out in the world.

And when I have the nerve or curiosity to reexamine TOUCHING THE SURFACE, I find myself stuck in a strange dichotomy of feelings and understanding about what I created.

 The truth is I waffle between two kinds of wonder when I think about TTS. 

I'm both amazed at what I created and equally amazed by what I didn't. 

It's like taking a walk on a Mobius Strip and thinking your moving in one direction to find you're upside down and moving in another.

But if you keep moving long and far enough through the work--you're back at the start again. 

But here's the real truth...

all of the roads--upside-down or right side up--lead to the same destination.

We are an accumulation of a lifetime of our work and our choices. 

Perfection is the enemy of the good and the done.

Growth requires change.

History is a powerful learning tool.

Self-examination can change our future, but not our past.

And remember to revel in all you've created--because when you are making something it means you are also actively engaged in not destroying something else. 

But if I were going to change one small thing about TOUCHING THE SURFACE...I wouldn't waffle about cutting down on the number of times I used the word THAT. 😂

Just for fun--if you've read TOUCHING THE SURFACE--what would you have wanted me to change?