Monday, September 16, 2019

I Waffle Between Two Kinds of Wonder--By: Kimberly Sabatini

This month on the blog we're talking about our first books and what we'd change about them as time has passed.


My answer is kind of a Mobius strip. 
I'd change so much and at the same time, nothing at all.



1. Graphical representation of a Möbius strip.


Let me try and explain...
Although I've yet to publish my next book, as I'm creating and writing new projects, I'm learning and growing. 
In my opinion--becoming a better writer. 
And I love every moment of engaging with my creative self. 
The process is a joy to me.

But publication is damn cool, too. 
And I plan to be back there when the time and the writing is right. 

Hence I write for myself and I write to share myself with others.
So, at the moment, the intersection of creating art for myself and chasing publication seems to be best represented by the book I already have out in the world.

And when I have the nerve or curiosity to reexamine TOUCHING THE SURFACE, I find myself stuck in a strange dichotomy of feelings and understanding about what I created.
 The truth is I waffle between two kinds of wonder when I think about TTS. 
I'm both amazed at what I created and equally amazed by what I didn't. 

It's like taking a walk on a Mobius Strip and thinking your moving in one direction to find you're upside down and moving in another.
But if you keep moving long and far enough through the work--you're back at the start again. 

But here's the real truth...
all of the roads--upside-down or right side up--lead to the same destination.

We are an accumulation of a lifetime of our work and our choices. 
Perfection is the enemy of the good and the done.
Growth requires change.
History is a powerful learning tool.
Self-examination can change our future, but not our past.
And remember to revel in all you've created--because when you are making something it means you are also actively engaged in not destroying something else. 

But if I were going to change one small thing about TOUCHING THE SURFACE...I wouldn't waffle about cutting down on the number of times I used the word THAT. 😂

Just for fun--if you've read TOUCHING THE SURFACE--what would you have wanted me to change? 







8 comments:

  1. I loved Touching the Surface - heartfelt and deeply personal it really touched a part of me that I didn't even know was missing.

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  2. Love this, Kim! I know what you're saying, but I also don't know how you could have written your first any better. <3

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  3. I understand what you're saying, but honestly? I wouldn't want you to change a word of it. I love it just the way it is!

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    1. Awww that is so sweet of you to say. <3 Thank you so much.

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