This might not be
what you expect.
I kinda didn't expect it either.
But its the truth--or at least it's my truth.
It's been SEVEN years since I published TOUCHING THE SURFACE.
And like most neurotic creatives, there was a period where I was a little freaked out by the passage of time between my first book and my second book. There were voices in my head and on my shoulders and maybe even in my shoes, that were whispering all the worst things I could dream up and piping them directly into my brain and my heart.
It sometimes felt scary and sad.
My self-doubt and insecurity had a way of creating more self-doubt and insecurity.
But I kept writing,
because I couldn't imagine life without it.
And the longer I kept writing,
the more something wonderful happened...
I fell deeper in love with muy creativity than ever before.
I'm aware I didn't hit that traditional measuring stick at the "optimal" time.
And just so you know, it wasn't that I didn't try to hit it.
I really did.
Somedays I had a stick in each hand
and I was swinging like mad.
In fact, since that first novel published, I've written two full YA novels and I'm almost done with #3.
I've written a young Middle-Grade Novel.
And I've also written multiple Picture Books.
I'm one of the SCBWI Eastern NY Hudson Valley Shop Talk Coordinators.
I attend several conferences a year.
I constantly immerse myself in books on craft.
I take online classes.
And I volunteer my time to help both writers and readers whenever I can.
I'm also all those other things in my life that aren't directly related to craft.
And all these things bring great joy and satisfaction to my life.
So, guess what?
I AM NOT A FAILURE AS A WRITER!
How could I be?
I'm making art every day and it makes me so freaking happy and proud of myself.
And I'm good at it and getting better all the time.
That feels like success.
It tastes like chocolate and smells like fall.
I'm also confident that my second book will arrive for me when it's supposed to.
And I suspect I will be glad that I took the time to get it right.
Because who really wants to write one--wrong?
Do I wish I was prolific enough to put out publishable novels a couple times a year?
Not gonna lie--that would be amazing.
But that's not where I've been standing.
My secret is...
I'm just a person who thinks very deeply about the things she writes and takes her time mining her inner self and the world around her in order to try and create something meaningful--first and foremost for her own growth and well being.
And I deeply believe that if I write and create with curiosity and purpose,
my work will connect with others because like attracts like.
Can I get faster?
Become a better writer?
Brush up on marketing?
Make more connections?
Improve in a variety of ways that will progress me on my journey?
Yes, I can and I'm always working on it!
But while I do, I can also remind myself that the secret to my amazing writing life is...ME.
What's the secret to your amazing life?